there’s so much that i learn every single day.
and i feel more than blessed to say that, today was one of those many days where i feel like i’m starting to learn more and more about myself, how everything i learn in a day is helping me become stronger, wiser and more successful.

i went to training today and then had a VIP conference with a few friends. After the conference with Junice, I realized how much more I have grown from the past month and a half. I am now more in control of my own mind, I know what i want for not only myself, but for my family. I am never satisfied with the things I do and i always feel as if anything i do is just never enough. however, for once, i think i’d have to say, i’m pretty proud of myself… for sticking through with things that has been putting me through emotional roller coasters and challenges i thought i’d never overcome, such as voicing my thoughts, being strong, and going for what I deserve in life.

I feel like i am on fire. I am about to conquer the world, life, and all the things this planet has to offer. I have a little voice in my head  right now that casts doubts for some reason. I just want to be honest with that. But u know what, i always here that your destiny is in your own hands. It’s what you make out of it. and i am going to do it. I am about to make things happen BIG in my life, for my family, for my parents, the ones i love, for my successful future that’s about to come.

I went to work out after and it felt so good knowing that i was on the elliptical for almost an hour, doing 4miles and burning almost 500 calories!!! Although winter’s barely here, you know what… SUMMER 2010, I AM READY FOR YOU! :D

Amara (my roomie) is sick today and i just called my mom to ask for instructions on making porridge. I hope she feels better soon… :( I don’t like it when my friends are sick

I am currently in the process of writing an email to the best educator in the world, Professor Bach. I want to let him know how admirable and thankful it is that UCI has such a great educator like him. I think everyone in the world should take his class… his classes are literally life changing, what feels like. I think he’s definitely one of the reasons why i even want to stay in college. just so that i could take more classes from him and learn&hear all the philosophies about life he has to share with his students. I’ve never had a teacher so passionate for his students before. The upper division class i’m taking with him is difficult but because of Professor Bach, i didnt care. I actually didn’t want to take another class just to “get by” with an A.

As i was saying, i just got back from working out with Ana. I bumped into two friends who wanted me to go party with them tonight at one of my close friend’s house. I havent talked to him in a while and it just feels like we’ve lost in touch… I miss him. I gave him a call right when i got home.

I teared up a little bit after calling my friend. Lately, i haven’t been “in touch” with my feelings. if that even makes any sense. As in, nothing really moved me, affected me or made me feel emotional about anything… until i realized what actually hurts me the most is realizing what felt like a good friend has forgotten you after he/she has a significant other.

I’m so happy for him. I was so happy when he told me that he finally found someone who he genuinely deserves. who makes him happy at the end of the night and excited to wake up to begin the day. I was literally feeding off his happiness and possibly, even happier than him almost. lol. I’d do anything for my friends and i dont say it to brag or expect anything in return ever. His girlfriend needed a ride to work and he had to get on carpool early in the morning at 7. I woke up at 6:30am to go with him so his girlfriend could get to work on time. He said his bestfriend who he actually lives with couldn’t wake up. After, i went shopping with him to buy groceries and things for his surprise for her birthday that day. I think that was the last day we “hung out.”

I dont mind if a friend takes advantage of me because every i meet a new friend, i just genuinely want to be the best of friends with them because i always believed that friends are the greatest gift you can give yourself. I just dont like it when these friends would treat me as if i’m no one to them, it just hurts. it just feels like i could be put aside when they find someone new. so far, that really hasnt happened. but i understand that people come and people go and life is going to be happy and wonderful no matter what because it’s really ME who makes life what i want it to be. =)

i love you mom, i love you dad, i love you justin, i love you everyone who i am so blessed with <3