why do i have to care so much. about others. about how other’s perceive me. i feel like i’m never doing enough for my friends and even myself.

I feel so aloof about things and i feel so bad every time i forget jokes, stories and memories that i want to remember.

Do you ever have that nostalgic feeling that makes you so frustrated because you heard something but can’t recall it and you want to share it so badly with someone? It happens to me a lot and i absolutely hate it. I really want to carry a note book around me so i can just document everything. every word. every feeling. i want to document every little detail i go through in a day and have it down on paper or a blog to remember.

there are so many interesting things that happen to me everyday and i want to beat myself up for not writing it down at the moment. why cant i remember things?

-debbie’s place: crazy lady/neighbor barges into their house for noise complaint
-shopping with brandon and roomies.
-coffeebean @ 11pm with Junice and Kang