when you like someone.

what does it mean to like someone? why do i feel so numb. why do i feel so emotionally blocked from the world. from people. from significant others. am i just scared? to get hurt…?

my TA shared something with us last week and i think she helped me how to find my inner feelings again. she related with me when she shared with us that when she falls in love, she falls hard. we only have one life to live, so why not? i agree to a certain degree. because sometimes, i just really dont want to go through the pain anymore. it drains me out when all i really want is to be happy with the person i like. when i strive for it and put my whole heart out for the person i like… i…

i’m just going to end it there. i just reread what i wrote and i just hate my writing. i wish i was a more coherent writer. i wish my writings made more sense. i wish i knew how to carry my thoughts across more clearly.